My Happy Ending

"Let's talk this over. It's not like we're dead. Was it something I did? Was it something You said? Don't leave me hanging, in a city so dead, held up so high on such a breakable thread.

"You were all the things I thought I knew. And I thought we could be."

Talk never got me anywhere. All it ever got me was more confusion more pain and more alone than I've ever been in my life.

"You were everything, everything that I wanted. We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it. And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away. All this time you were pretending... So much for my happy ending."

I wrapped so much of my life up in you, but all you ever did was disappoint me. And all those times I said you never had... I wasn't lying to you as much as I was lying to myself. And now I'm left with only pain.

"You've got your dumb friends. I know what they say. They tell you I'm difficult, but so are they. But they don't know me. Do they even know you? All the things you hide from me. All the shit that you do. You were all the things I thought I knew. And I thought we could be."

Your friends and your family... They never even knew about me. You hid me for so long it became your way of life. But you shared more with me than any of them. You shared your soul. You shared your pain. And What's my reward? Being left behind cause I'm not good enough.

"It's nice to know that you were there. Thanks for acting like you cared. And making me feel like I was the only one. It's nice to know we had it all. Thanks for watching as I fall. And letting me know we were done."

For a time, you were all I wanted, all I knew, all I cared about. You acted like it was the same for you. But in the end, you were pretending because you didn't want to hurt me. But after it all, you stood back and watched me make a fool of myself. But you weren't the one letting me know we were through...

No. That was left to me. I finally wised up. I loved a figment of my imagination. You were never truly there for me. And now a part of me is thankful that there is no child to connect us. That pain would have haunted me for the rest of my life. And Noelle's. Instead of having a child with a man I loved that can never be mine, I've had a child with a violent criminal. So much for my happy ending.

At least I don't have to have you in my life as the 'could have been'. Truly... This has been a happy ending to my tragic story.

A life I don't have to share with anyone. And sleepless nights alone for the rest of my life to cry myself to sleep. I can't compare with a deaf girl with a beautiful smile.

What a happy ending...